i am so upset about my bad english. I thought it was incredible for a non-English learner to speak english fluently. however, I read an article about a Chinese who become the American ambassador who lives in China, which encourages me a lot. if somebody else who is a Chinese can speak English and have an achievement like that, how am i suppose to give it up. I've made some progress since i changed my way to learn English, I will make an effort for that.