This is for the 23 year first person celebrates a birthday.does not have the cake,does not have the lively atmosphere,was only such peaceful pass,how many were somewhat lonely.because does not want too many people to see the innermost feelings the monologue,therefore has written this diary with English.treats as accepts as a memento,this time's I,am worth the record.the present's life is at the seal the condition.does not have with anybody excessively relates.all mood gradually become silent.sometimes already could not feel own heart whether bright.about the sentiment,already did not dare to think.when I knew that you prepare to leave,sad has cried for a long time.if I have not placed in such accident,I thought that I will be brave a spot to look for you.now already is the thing is the human must,only could say lightly,was happy for you,a person lived wants to look after itself.looks helplessly the reality spreads out two person's slowly,the line gradually is gradually far.is like this sober,bears patiently is called the human the painful success and failure to go to the language.the this year-old birthday desire becomes the most difficult lower pharynx's dialog unexpectedly.I hoped that you realize your dream.I will also refuel,earnest life,many years later,if we can meet again,if we will be lonely a person,I certainly reckless will love you,certainly no longer spiritless giving up