今年最難過的一件事(2011-01-31 16:56:46)
This year the most sad thing (2011-01-31 16:56:46)

今年最難過的一件事,就是媽媽確診為尿毒癥.就在媽媽住院的前一天,剛好收到了周還款,我極度惡化的財務狀況得到了一定程度的緩解,還沒有來得及慶祝一下,次日就收到父親的電話,說媽媽病得厲害,需要到市里來住院冶療,我當天下午就趕回老家,把媽媽接到了太和.
This year the most sad thing, mom was diagnosed as uremia. On mother in hospital, just received weeks before my extreme reimbursement, deteriorating finances get a certain degree of ease and haven't come to celebrate, the next day will receive his father's telephone, said that mom is seriously ill, need to the city hospital heal, I came back home, that same afternoon the mom got tai.
當得知媽媽可能是尿毒癥的時候,有幾天晚上我難以入睡,腦海里想起當年上學時,媽媽每天早上做飯的事情,當我也為人父時,我知道每天早上早早地起床不是一件容易的事情,每想到這里,我總是忍不住流下淚來.有一天從醫(yī)院出來之后去辦公室,正走在地下通道時,我又想起媽媽也許不久于人世,眼淚流出來都已經模糊了我的視線,恨不得就此停下來,好好地哭一場.
When that mom may be uremia, have a night I couldn't sleep, mind remembered every morning at school, mom, when I cook things for father, I know to get up early every morning is not a easy thing, every thought of here, I always cannot help shed tears. One day come out from the hospital after and was going to go to the office in the subway, I again remind of the mother may die soon, my tears to have blurred my view, very anxious to stop and have a good cry in one game.
當我們慢慢地認識到媽媽的尿毒癥已是一個不得不面對的現實的時候,悲傷的眼淚已經流了許多,以至于后來在病房的走廊里看到初來病房的家屬悲痛欲絕時,心里會想,與我們當初來時的感覺是一樣的.傷心過后,就是必須得要面對高額的醫(yī)療費用問題.媽媽是農村戶口,由于家里一直比較窮,沒有積蓄,沒有商業(yè)保險,只有前年才有的農村合作醫(yī)療,農合醫(yī)療不光有許多的項目不能報銷,而且還有年度報銷限額,我們這個地方一年至多能報3萬元,3萬元對于尿毒癥的冶療來說,只能是杯水車薪.我們家是姐弟四人,二個姐姐,二個弟弟,一個姐姐家在農村,做點手工,收入有限;
When we slowly realizing that mom uremia is already a have to face reality, sad tears flow has been many, so that later, in ward hallway see first came to ward, in the heart of grieving families, and we will come to the original feels the same. After heart-hurt is must to face high medical costs problem. My mother is rural registered permanent residence, because home have been relatively poor, no savings, no commercial insurance, only the year before to some rural cooperative medical, farming medical not only has many project cannot submit an expense account, but also the annual reimbursement quota, we this place can offer a year at most three yuan, 3 million yuan for the heal for uremia, only a drop in the ocean. Our home is walking four people, two sisters, two brothers and one sister's home in the countryside, do something manual, income is limited;
另一個姐姐與姐夫都是中學老師,但在老家那個鬼地方,兩人一月的收入還不到2000元,剛能交媽媽一天半的住院費用;
Another sister and brother-in-law is middle school teacher, but in their hometown that damned place, two January's income is less than 2,000 yuan, just to make mother half day hospital expenses;
弟弟與我都是自謀生路的人,有時收入多,有時少,多的時候交稅,少的時候也沒見有國家來補助一點點.以我們的財務能力,實在無力支持媽媽的醫(yī)療費用.多年以來,媽媽的身體都沒有得到有效照顧,有小病時總是拖著,以至于今日集中爆發(fā).除了尿毒癥外,媽媽的高血壓也處于危險級別,都是貧窮惹得禍,有了癥狀才會去體檢,其實都已經晚了,加上高血壓病也沒有特別的不適,遂不當回事,沒有規(guī)范的冶療.另外還有腰椎壞死,腰椎壞死與長期以來的家庭暴力有關,緣于多年前父親加之于母親的家庭暴力,當年都已經受傷了,腰椎變形,結核桿菌多年來又一直侵襲受傷的腰椎,以至于壞死了.但醫(yī)生也不愿意冒險進行手術.現在神經受到壓迫,腰椎以下都是麻木的.如果繼續(xù)透析,就得要做長期導管,可是媽媽的血管基礎太差,按醫(yī)生的說法,血管都是脆的,無法造漏,也無法埋長期導管,只能在股靜脈做臨時導管,但由于這個部位容易污染,一般最長只能管用一個月,兩條腿也只能管上兩個月,相當于媽媽的生命在倒計時了.面對復雜的病情,醫(yī)生也感到很是難搞.經姐弟四個商量,并報請舅父批準,我們決定回家休養(yǎng)算了,盡量滿足媽媽的心愿,掰著指頭過日子了.
Brother and I are live on my own, sometimes more, sometimes less, income tax, much less time didn't also saw a country to aid a little. With our financial ability, really unable to support mom medical costs. Over the years, mother's body have not been effective care are always dragging, ailments that centralized outbreaks. Besides uremia today, mother of hypertension outside also at the danger level, are poor provoked disaster, with symptoms will go to medical, actually are already late, plus hypertension also no special unwell, hence lightly, no standard and heal. Another lumbar necrosis, lumbar necrosis and long-standing family, derives from the years ago about violence in mother's father and family violence, that year have injured, lumbar deformation, n/med tuberculosis bacili years again has been hit the injured lumbar that necrosis. But the doctors are not willing to take risks. Now nerve surgery by oppression, lumbar below are numb. If you continue dialysis, we're going to have to do long-term catheter, but mother vascular foundation was too bad that, according to the doctor, blood vessels are brittle and cannot be made leak, cannot only in long-term catheter, buried a temporary of femoral vein, but because this area catheter to pollution, usually only useful for a month, the longest legs can only tube for two months on, equivalent to mother's life in the countdown. Facing complex condition, the doctor also feel is difficult, to consult with the chens four. And submitted to the uncle approval, we decided to go home rest well, try to meet mom's wishes, snapping a finger along.
這樣的無奈決定,讓人感到很悲哀.從死神的手中奪回媽媽三個月的時間,按老家的話講,算是盡心了;
The helpless decided, let a person feel very sad. From death to recapture mother of three months, according to their hometown words, be conscientious;
這三個月,媽媽的日子過得也很是艱難,很痛苦,就算是傾家蕩產,也只能換來媽媽痛苦的日子.這是一個痛苦的決定,我們對于媽媽的愛沒能做到無私無畏,我感到很羞愧.這也是一個時代的悲哀,國民的生命沒有得到國家的有效照顧.忍不住一聲嘆息,為什么這樣窮呢?
The three month, mother's day also is very difficult, very painful, even great, also can get mom miserable. This is a painful decision, to our mother's love can't do selfless, I feel very ashamed fearless. This is an era of sorrow, national life didn't get the effective care state. Couldn't help a sigh, why so poor?